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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 12:10:01 GMT

We promised we'll be in this thing together..

why you leaving me now?

Haven't been updating

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 11:57:12 GMT

I've been so freaking busy... I'm enjoying though... but then I'm getting tired. Ohwell. Hayayay. Why am I tired? I don't know.

Kanina, Ms. Anonueve, gaaad I loove her. I love her class! :) I really do learn a lot! :) I think Lit is my fave subject this sem. it's just hard to please her (with our papers)... but other than that, I looove everything. :)

I especially love how she used "I want to make their lives colorful" than "i want to make their life harder". She was talking about a 3-day seminar in ateneo that she attended. Food was great but service and the whole seminar was a total waste daw. She paid Php5,000 and went home without even any hand-outs. Basta she was so funny. :) hahaha. :)

She asked us to remember something/someone/event that happened to us that changed our ordinary lives... And I think this it. Running for SJE changed my life. So much. And I'm not the same anymore. Hay I want to write a lot... I want to write how now natatakot ako with what pinasok ko. I want to write about this FEAR... na hindi ko malabas coz people malamang will just tell me na "kaya mo yan". Yeaaah kaya ko to. Eh why am I even thinking di pa naman panalo.

Anyway, I was reading my horoscope the other night. I forgot what mag yun but it was sooo funny. I wonder if it's true? It says na, someone's coming... actually someone's in my life right now... and unless I let go of the past, that someone can't fully come in.. and that I should let go na daw coz it's never coming back. Then the other day, Gee and I were walking around Katipunan and this big FEDEX van talaga passed by infront of me. As in! Malapit na talaga. Before we used to see them from afar lang. And after it passed, nun lang namin na-realize ni Gee and we kept laughing. Sabi ni Gee, "oiiii maika... ano un?!" sabi ko, "siguro eto na. Andito na siya."

And truly, Andito na nga siya. :) I haven't been writing about it... probably because now, I want to keep it as is. It's my delivery...my package... and siguro I want to have it for myself first. Kinda selfish? :) hahha. :) mine. :)

Ge na gotta study naman! :)

so there was you..

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 04:03:30 GMT

..I am just so happy...so busy.. so feeling weird lately. :)

hahaha. :) tomorrow people are going to vote. Suddenly, I feel like I don't want to win anymore. Haha. :)

this is it.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 02:02:46 GMT

I got this from ate's blog. :) hahaha wala lang i just wanted to share...they're from Grey's Anatomy (which I have yet to finish!) Imma update sooN!

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away. "

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

" I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope... "

some lines..

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 14:02:54 GMT

"thank you for seeing my worth and for picking me up.." --anne, Maging Sino Ka Man

"...it's not pretending, it's called patience."

"...kaya nga iniintindi kasi you're worth everything..."

"di na kita mahal."

Hayayay. Got them from different people. Ohwell. Ohwell. I was able to talk to Sheree today...and my, super I felt better. I miss our kada na :( And we talked about "him"... but I told her, I'm happier now! :) Move on! :)

So, even if I lose this president thingie, may work pa din. Ms. Mona found out we have our own party... and it kind of surprised me that she didn't know. Ohwell. I feel like I made so many mistakes na...di pa man President. Hay Still learning. "Nevertheless" i'm trying. Trying harder.

I remember a line from One Tree Hill.. Karen said, "when you've worked hard, you still have to work harder." Thus work never ends. But now, nothing feels like work. :) My party and I are enjoying the mini meetings we're having... the planning and the "feeling responsible" hahahaha :) Last week was full of meetings! hahahaha. :) Super saya. :) So, this is how it feels. :) hahaha. :)

I'm so excited na for summer. I don't know why! :) hahaha! I just want to let everything go. :) relax and all. :) I actually want to graduate already and see where life will take me! :)

I have a sonG!

Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

sadness...

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 02:44:09 GMT

I just want to write... I want to blog about something... no, not just something... I want to blog about a lot of things. See, everytime I start to type, nawawala na lahat. Waaah is this bad? I hope not.

I'll be out.

Guess who's back?

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 23:15:18 GMT

Been a while since I last posted something in here... it took me some time, too, to fix my site and give my santa baby lay out some rest. :) heehee! :)

I'm kind of busy lately. No, make that, I'm tamad and YET I have sooo many things left to do. :( I still have my campaign. The whole party met last Friday and I really felt so alive talking about our ideas! :) I wish we all win, but then, whoever gets in gets to fulfill our plans as a party :) I just lloooove them! :)

I lost my red magic wallet Friday night too. :( 2nd time I cried so hard at National Bookstore Katipunan! :( waaah i lost almost P1500 :( so saad.

Anyway, I'm not in the mood..maybe continue this post later. :)

Back from summer...ay...sembreak...ay christmas vacation pala

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 11:48:17 GMT

whoopsseeeee!!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 04:14:57 GMT

Recap... di lahat kasama but eto na yun! :)

Punta Fuego Vacation (antaba ko non!) Then the completion of our house! :) The winning booth Vinte'!! :) And then first Fashion Show ENVISTYLE that's kit and may anne.. then my portfolio! :) Marketing Manager for the IBC with HR Manager, Tin! :) Then I met my baby and titaaaaa :) Then that's Aynie and me.. :) new hair style for all of us. :) Then My FIRST sunflower. :) and then Crespo's bday! :)

Later will be another FIRST. First Christmas party with SJE. Hay, i'm kind of tired from this... I'm excited coz I made another dress... but hay all this planning left me sick! :( hay. Siguro i'm not ready to plan a fashion show yet. We'll be planning again next year... for our biggest fashion show. Our first major fashion show. :) haaay.

Maya all white christmas party outfit... kamusta, I have my monthly period!! :( GUYS! punta kayo Blue Onion Eastwood Libis 7PM! :) yayay!!

So, leaving for a while!!!

much love.. Maika. :)

Happy Man.

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 12:03:13 GMT

HEY! :) Hay. Been sooo busy :( but i'm happy. :) heehee! I got this from my partner's blog..

---At shempre...Ang buhay, hindi naman yan para sayo eh. Gumagalaw ka para sa ibang rason. Tumingila ka uli. Andun yung sagot. =)

.So yun, I guess un na un.

I'm still looking for time to buy Christmas gifts for my family.. i'll get my friends' gifts next year! hay. I'm so feeling this Christmas but then.. I haven't found time to shop for them yet! :( Nyay! But I always find time to shop for myself...waaah. :( I have sooo many clothes..and shoes! :) hahaha. And i'm getting addicted to shopping. boohoo!

I'm suddenly tired. But I find things really funny. So God Bless me.

I need prayers. Maybe I need to see a psychologist or whatever. I don't know what's happening to myself.

Am I like happy man?

Maybe.